 | Ok, to keep it short. Last yr I found out I was preganant....surprise. We moved to a new town , no friends, no family. My 30 yr old husbad has a heartattack. I have a high risk pregnany that keeps me in the hospital everytwo weeks on IV for dehydration. My poor 2 and a half yr old is witnessing this disaster. He is baby sat by the tv while mommy throws her brains out everyday for her entire pregnancy. Fun....gets better. My husband loses 4 months of work, new house , big mortage, way behind on bills. Baby comes 3 weeks early, jaudice to the max. I am breastfeeding, he is colic. My 3 yr old hates me, my husband is never home because he is always working(not good for a recovering heartattack victim) . My 3 yr old acts out because I spend more time trying to quiet a collicy baby.
Ok, my 3 yr old has terrible allergies, refuses to make on the potty, hates soccor , pushes other kids for no reason, answers back . My husband is teaching him how to "defend himself " from other kids who hit him...which in turn is confusing him , because he hits everyone , including me.
I work from home to supplement our income, I am severely anemic, I don't sleep well. Everyone is pulling me in every direction.
I have lost my best little buddy(my 3 yr old) My husband complains that he does not get enough attention, and my 4 month old spends all of his waking moments crying.
Yikes , I can go on and on.
But I won't. Just finding it hard to cope , not to many friends where we live now, people are just plain weird .
I feel so alone, so angry and so sad. All of my good parenting seems to have gone out the window. I yell more then I have ever in my life. My time outs are useless. I refuse to spank my 3 yr old, though my husband says I should. I just can't do it , my 3 yr old is the light in my life, what did I do wrong? What happened?
Any suggestions for a mom who is losing her mind?
I want my normal life back! |
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