 | I don't wanna die, most of the time i enjoy my life. Sometimes i have to get away from everything. Coke does that for me and so does the cutting. Why would pain make me feel better, i have no idea but it does. I discovered i was a cutter about the time i was 12, i am now 19. I have the most discusting scars, and wish they would go away, but they are my reminders. Sometimes i am strong enough to stop myself, and other times i am not. I just wanna get better and not have to worry about covering my scars, making up stories about them, and i wanna be able to wear showy clothes, with out the embarrasment of people asking questions about them. I know that tonight i will probally lay in bed, cry and think about my problems,if i get out the blade or not, that the question. Maybe i'll just stay up, till i fall asleep. Help, what do i do? |
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