 | Hello everyone...I am new to this board, but felt like I need some help. Me and my husband just lost our miracle baby girl 2 days ago. The reason I say our "miracle baby" is this...12 years ago I had Hodgkins Disease and had a Bone Marrow Transplant. Because of all the chemo and radiation, I went into early menopause, (I am 32 yrs old now)and every Dr told me I could not get pregnant...EVER! 3 years ago, I had a severe blood clot in my right kidney, and was on coumadin ever since. This past March, I had some bleeding that was unusual, went to the Dr and we were told the beautiful news..we were pregnant!!! Our first scare was the coumadin and the threat of fetal warfarin syndrom. After seeing many specialists, we were told not to worry, they caught the pregnancy in time, and stopped the coumadin immediately. They all assured us that the baby would be fine. We were so happy. i was in High Risk, because of my blood disorder, so I had more sono's than usual. So, in my 10th week, I had a sono, and the Dr found a Cystic Hygroma behind the babies head. We were told that there was a 95% chance that our baby would be chromosomally abnormal and to schedule a D & C!! I refused to believe that, and went for a second opinion...the Dr. suggested a CVS procedure (very similar to a amnio)The procedure would be 100% accurate, and we would know what was wrong. I had it done, and the next 3 weeks were hell. We cried every nite, but prayed for the best. Last Wed. I saw my Dr. and he had good news!! We were having a healthy baby girl!! She would need surgery once she was born, but he gave me the name of one of his patients who went thru the same thing and has a healthy 5 year old daughter today. We spoke with her on Sunday, and were so very happy!! This past Tuesday, our world crashed in around us...our baby died.
I know this is long, but I am just so angry, sad, and depressed. I feel so hopeless and alone. My husband is great, and I want to be here for him, but I cannot even be there for myself right now. I am just curious how other women get thru this tragedy. What can I do to lift us up. Any help would be so appreciated! Thank you in advance for any advice. |
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