 | Hi Stefania. I'm 27 and just found out a month ago I'm pregnant - due Christmas Eve. When I told the father he freaked out, but he said that he would "support" my decision. Since then I've talked to him like 3 times - I guess his idea of support is the obligatory 10-minute phone call a week. He told me that he's never going to tell anyone about "this", especially not his ex-girlfriend (who he still lives with and says they are now trying to work things out.) I don't want my baby to grow up knowing that his father is ashamed of his existence, so I wonder if it wouldn't be better for us both if I just forget about him altogether.
I just moved to Washington last year and ALL my family and friends are in Texas, so I don't really have much in the way of emotional support. My family doesn't know yet, and I don't know how to tell them... I'm afraid my parents will disown me. I'm not a child anymore, so I feel like I should be able to do this alone, but I can't get a decent job up here and I'm broke and everything is falling apart and I can't even afford to get back home to Texas.
Sometimes I feel like screaming and crying, and then I think I'm going to die of loneliness and fear - maybe it's the hormones or maybe it's just stress... or maybe it's completely normal. But then at night I dream about the baby, and I wake up and he's inside me and alive, and somehow I know it's all going to be OK. I believe that God will take care of us. Like they say - I don't think He gives us more than we can handle.
Anyway, I could go on forever too, but I'll stop now.... If you want to talk to someone, you can email me at lcorvin@hotmail.com.
Take care! |
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