 | Ok this may sound a little wierd.However, about a month ago i randomly remembered a game that I used to play with my next door neighbor boy. I dont remember exactly how many times but i remember that we would get naked and play like house or gender roles. Anyway, i remember kissing vividly and some touching involved. His mom has saw us once and i think stopped us but i dont really remember. Anyways, I stayed in close contact with him and his brothers until they moved a couple of years ago.I had rememberd t a few years ago and had the same problem as now. I had asked him about it and he said he rememberd and he didnt wanna talk about it because it grossed him out too. I was about 4 or 5 and he was about the same age. I am now 18 years old and have lived a perfectly normal life with tons of friends and have dated occasionally. There isnt a question of my sexuality, I am undoubtingly attracted to girls. However, I can not get this image out of my head. Its helped to make me depressed at times and I go up and down with my moods. Things that used to be fun arent even cuz i continue to think bout it. In fact, not to sound crude, but drinking with my friends doesn't seem to even help temporarily. I am supposed to go to visit my brother tomorrow at his college and I am usually always exited but right now i dont even wanna go. Can some one tell me why we did this and how do i forget bout it. I know everyones saying its curiosity, but why would I have kissed a nother boy when i was 4 like i kiss girls now. Please Help. Im going off to college nex year and need to move on. It's kind of messing up my life |
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