 | hey cora
well, i finally got access to this site! one more time... i'm a legal studies major and a law school hopeful. we'll see once little jacob gets here what's more realistic - paralegal work or law school. pardon my ignorance, but what's phlebotomy? yikes needles!
life here has been super stressful - my fiance has had somesort of mid-life crisis and now i must choose what's better, my little boy not meeting his dad or risking the chance that he'll screw us over again. right now i'm letting him stay at our apartment and go to doctors appointments, but i'm not sure if that's the right decision. who ever heard of a good-looking 22 year old male hiring prostitutes? this is so embarassing - i just don't know what to do. we're talking about seeing a counselor - he seems to really want this family now, but will he next time some huge life change has been made? this is not the first time he has cheated on me. but with prostitutes? who does that? i like to think of myself as a strong person, but he makes me weak. i always forgive him and carry on as if nothing happened. but this... he could have really hurt me and our child. i had to get an STD screening at my dr. appt. today! who needs that when they're, like 8 months preggo?! i don't know if i can forgive him, especially when he strayed when i needed him most. sorry, cora, i didn't mean to unload on you - just so much on my mind. I keep praying, i just wonder what lesson god is trying to teach me!
i'll keep my fingers crossed for a positive HPT! good luck!
carrie |
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