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| | | NEXT MESSAGE  | | | | | AUTHOR: | hopen_n_prayn | DATE: 01/22/04 10:06pm | | SUBJECT: |  My first misscarriage | | | Another newbie here. Today I would be six weeks. I have been bleeding alot for the past couple of days and spotting for a few weeks before that.This is .. err.. was my second time being pregnant. My first gave me no problems at all.NONE.. I have a very bright and beautiful five yr old daughter. So, it was a surprise to me when I started have complications with this one. I suspected that something might be wrong. But to make me feel better ,I suppose, everyone kept telling me it was common to bleed in the first trimester. This would have been the first baby that my husband and I have had together. At my first Dr. visit, my mid wife did a HCG.She was afraid to give me a pelvic exam for fear of making matters worse. The results came back saying I was still pregnant but they wanted to test me again. After I got off the phone with my mid wife, I went to the bathroom and passed some tissue about the size of two quaters. Mrs. Kathey, (my mid wife) wanted me to bring it in . The next morning..this morning.. she called and asked me to come in to do a u/s. There was no fetus to be seen and the placenta had closed in on itself. Mrs.Kathy says it might have been ectopic.
It doesn't matter now. I don't even know if I want to know. I do know that I am only 24 and still capable of having children. It's just that this was sooo unexpected and heart breaking. We had already named him,(Baden Matthew), knowing that it was a boy deep in our hearts. We had prayed and tried for months and thought this was finally it. How could God allow me to get pregnant and then take it away? Why? Being that this is my first misscarry, I know that it's going to be hard. I just pray to God that this does'nt happen again. I don't even know what to feel. It hurts.. and I know that there will be other chances.. but I really wanted this. My husband really wanted this. He's let a few tears show, but I think he's trying to be strong for the both of us. His mother had four misscarries, one which was twins. Could that be gentic passed through him? I was also told that I have a cyst on my left ovarie. Could that have caused the misscarriage or could the misscarriage have caused the cyst? Anyway.. I've had thoughts of how my daughter is going to take this. I haven't told her yet. She has been wanting a baby so bad. A few months ago she asked me when was I going to take my pregnancy test.. So sweet and innocent. My brother in law says that I should tell her that Jesus is babysitting until she gets there. You can imagine the tears that flowed, well, thank you for letting me vent some of my feelings. It feels so good to vent yet there is soo much left un-said. | |  | |
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